The wolf has shown it’s mighty self in my heart and in my spirit. It is waiting for me to heed it’s call and summons and follow his lead to the teachings and wisdom that awaits me.
I have been feeling the emotional turbulence in my spirit for the last few days, not knowing exactly what has brought it on but knowing intuitively that I am entering another period of change and self-growth. Again..It never ends. Last night before I went to bed my eye caught the poster of the snow leopard that hangs above my dresser that reminds me of my inner strength and light. As I looked at the face of the leopard I could see it begin to morph into a wolf. How the eyes began to glow and the snout began to lengthen. I could feel the energy of the wolf emanating in my room in my spirit and the calling of the teacher come to wake me once again.
When I am feeling conflict internally I often look to my oracle cards to help my clarify what is going on at a deeper level and present an objective perspective to what is happening inside of me. Today I turned to my Spirit of the wheel mediation deck that looks to the elements, the four directions, moon, sun and animals as a way to provide guidance. I choose to do a layout that would give me an in depth look at what was unfolding in my life and watched as the first three cards I pulled all had the image and energy of the wolf. Not surprising but none the less powerful. The wolf is an animal that has visited me often on my path as I share the energy of teacher with this wise being. The wolf brings my attention to my gifts and purpose as teacher and how it is time now to let that wisdom be shared with others. How now is the time for recognition of this call and heeding its voice on my soul, I can no longer turn a blind ear or eye to the beatings of my heart and call of my higher self.
I am embarking on a period in my life where I am stepping out more fully than before, taking on more responsibility and doing my part to share my light to raise the vibration of earth and those that are guided to me. It is a terrifying concept and path that I have chosen to walk and some days I want nothing else then to crawl into my bed and hide from it all. Go back to being just a girl of little importance and who has the ability to stay hidden, safe and not out in the open exposed and vulnerable. I am an intensely private person by nature holding close to myself to protect myself from hurt and harm. I am a sensitive soul that is affected deeply by the energy of others, I also have much to share and an abundance of wisdom that flows through me in a constant stream of energy. Sometimes it is so overwhelming that I can feel as if I want to explode. It is because this wisdom needs an outlet needs channel to be directed too and I have been closing off this channel because I am afraid. I don’t want to lose myself, I don’t want to lose my innocence, my purity, my inner child that so fiercely wants to just be to play and be surrounding by those she holds dear. Sometimes I feel as if the burden is too much to bear that I have to be this person all the time a person of strength, of wisdom, of knowing when all I want is to just be me with no expectations and the freedom that being brings. Perhaps I can be both and that it is my own inner demons that tell me likewise. This is what I am discovering and uncovering while I embark on another journey into myself. I can feel the depth and the magnitude to what this new growth will bring me, I only hope that I will do it justice and I will be able to fulfill what it is I am meant to fulfill not just for myself but the lives of those I touch with my words…